A conversation with a friend from work got me thinking (a very dangerous thing for me to do) haha. I'm really not one to talk about my weight loss. I don't mind (read: Love) when people tell me i'm looking healthier/thinner etc but I start to get tetchy when they ask me if i'm 'trying' to lose weight or ask 'how i'm doing it'. I think this is for a few reasons:
A) I'm afraid to 'jinx' it. This is obviously an irrational fear!
B) I still, in part, feel terrible that I 'need' to lose weight again. I mean, once, fine! But i've done it once and allowed myself to put the weight on again and for that, I feel embarrassed.
C) and now, the biggest reason of all... I'm afraid to admit that i'm trying. If people know i'm trying then they'll also be able to tell if i'm failing. So am I giving myself an out? Am I allowing myself the leeway to go backwards in my weight loss. And if that IS what i'm doing, is that really the best thing for me...?
These are all pretty ridiculous fears. My friends have always loved me for who I am, no matter what size that is. They've never been embarrassed by me or ashamed to be out with me. In fact, they're brilliant and supportive and we all love each other to pieces.
So from now on when people ask if i'm trying to lose weight i'm going to say yes! I'm going to tell them that i'm following the weight watchers guidelines and I'm exercising at a healthy level.
I mean, what if one of these people is asking me because they have been thinking about changing their unhealthy habits and they want to know how? What if this person is looking for someone to understand that they are struggling too? Hell, what if the person is on Weight Watchers as well and we can gossip about points and snacks and share our triumphs!
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